thamel kathmandu nepal

sometimes i ask myself what is the reason i like nepal so much. i live here in thamel, the touristic section of kathmandu and i am learning nepali.
is it the steak i eat every day? is it the rikschas and the violin players in the street, the loud music from the cd-shops? the children beggars or the constantly huphup in town? the people who ask me every second: "anything - something", what means the possibility to get every drog if i would like?
no it isn't. i like more to eat thaifood than this westernized steak. the people who ask me every second to spend money or do a trip or bye some drugs nerves me. it is quite a big exercise not to react and that's the only good about. and i am bored of this constantly huphup in the streets. nobody seems to have time and i feel more like in europe than in the east. especially when the night is coming around 7 p.m. the street are full of cars and people and motorbikes. every person seems to take the same streets.
so what is it? i still don't know. but maybe it is the चीया (chiiya - tee) i like to drink so much. perhaps it is the friendly people that always have time to discuss or speak a little. of course some are looking for money or cigarettes becouse they earn maybe 3000 rupee a month what i easely spent in 3 days. and maybe it is the eyes of kathmandu you can see everywhere, on the temple, on bags, t shirts and walls. but i think what i like most is the not perfect streets, the not perfect electricity, the not perfect things you can buy. many things are still handmade here. becouse if every thing is perfect there is nothing more to do in kath man du.